If you desire change
And yet find yourself
Hitting a wall
Resistant to change
Saying no to receiving
Anything or anyone
Not knowing who to trust
What to trust
For not feeling safe
For fear of being abandoned
And getting hurt again
Especially if most of your life
Was repeated trauma, abuse and pain
I feel you
I feel your heart
I feel your hurts
I feel your pain
You are not wrong for saying no
What if you are never wrong
For whatever choice you make?
What if you always learn
With whatever choice you make
In your own way
With your own path
At your own pace, and
It will always turn out good for you?
What if your deepest desire
Is feeling heard and
Feeling safe
To be heard
In order for you
To be able to receive
Anyone and anything that works for you
And unleash your power within you?
You might be told to
Choose this or do that
Many times,
It might work for some
It might not for others
I would like to share with you
My personal experience
As it comes to feeling safe to receive
I made friends with these street dogs
When I felt unsafe with no humans
These dogs were scared of humans
The leader of this group of street dogs
Was friendly with me from the beginning
He would allow me to touch him
Pet him and play with him
There was this younger dog of the group
Who would always come for food
And watch me play with the leader
Day in and day out
But would always withdraw and
Never allow me to touch her
She didn’t feel safe
She didn’t trust me
She was scared of getting hurt
I wanted her to know
That I loved her so much
That I was there present with her
Even when she didn’t feel safe
So she would just come for food
And watch me play with the leader
For two years straight
Until one day
She allowed me to touch her
For the very first time
That made me feel so happy
Over the moon
So honored, so blessed
As she started to trust me
And receive what I had to offer her
From that day on,
She would allow me to pet her
And play with her
Everyday with so much joy
So what is my point?
We all are different
Some require more of this or that
Than the others
If you have never felt safe to receive,
There is a part of you
That does know who and what is required
For you to feel safe to receive
That is right for you
We all have different backgrounds
We all have our different paths
We all go at our own pace
We all have different lessons to learn
We all learn them in different ways
Nobody experiences what you experience
Only you know what is required for you
It ain’t easy
Yet it can be done
In order to trust others,
We gotta trust ourselves first
Trust your heart
Trust your soul
Trust your knowing
No matter what others say
What if you do know
What you are doing
Even when you have doubts?
That’s how capable you are
What if your deepest desire
Is nothing but your deep
Unconditional love for you
And trust in you?
What if everything you
Have been going through
Is to learn to do and be just that
For you
One moment at a time
One day at a time
One step at a time
To build a strong foundation with you
From inside out
In order to receive and be the true change
That your heart and soul require and desire?
With that,
You are strong
You are resilient
You are intuitive
You are capable
With your knowing
Whether you believe it or not
You got this. One step at a time.
-Phuong
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